It’s 2.12am.
Still in the office. But can hardly do any work. Got plenty to do! 
Just spent the past hour chatting with Vince via ICQ. It’s great how I can talk about anything over ICQ with my brother. It’s fantastic. It’s as if he’s right there in front of me. Talked about how I’m so deep in debt and how I’ve been in this crappy perpetual plateau rut for a year. And which doesn’t seem to be going anywhere. Being broke every single month for the past 12 months isn’t funny. Not even a minute amount. I’m not taking any of this lightly. It really isn’t amusing at all. I work hard, I spend little. But nothing seems to work. And the bloody thing is the freaking banks turned me down on a personal loan to consolidate my debts. How nice. Splendid. Just when you need them, the frigging desert you.
Grr…..
It’s nobody’s fault but mine. I have no one to blame but for my foolishness. And now I’m paying for it.
Still upset about the loan though. Would have made a huge difference. Would have eased things substantially. Would have given me a little more space to breathe. And live a little. Sigh.
